Finding Medicine in the Dark
The power of wholeness and compassion in trying times
“Go deeper, go deeper, go deeper”, she whispers to me, bringing me into the folds and depths of myself I have yet to explore. The feminine, winter’s approach, the dark new moon all are beckoning us to plunge ourselves into the fertile darkness, quietly calling us to look at our shadows and wounds.
The world is demanding that we address our shadows right now. Our shadows are being mirrored to us in full force. Standing Rock and the continued violence again Native and Indigenous persons who honor and live with the Earth. The election and rise in violence and revealing of our pain and bigotry. The bombings in Syria and her children being wounded and killed. The blatant disregard for the sacredness of life in all its forms. Everywhere you look we are oversaturated with the agony of the world and the impact of what we have created. We are inundated with this pain; we cannot turn away.
And although there are so many days that, seeing it all, hearing it all, f e e l i n g it all is too much to bear. I promise you loves, there is a wisdom in all of this. Kali Yuga is upon us and just like Nature has the inherent wisdom to her cycles, so does Spirit as we are plunged into the dark.
What we can find here at these depths.
What it takes in us to find our ways out of the dark.
The type of courage and alchemy that we must embody
to be willing to go back to this place. Again and again.
There is a value and weight to this work that is incomprehensible.
These journeys into our shadows reveals a medicine we can carry with us that gives us the greatest liberation, power, freedom, and love we have ever had.
It is in the dark that we find this medicine. It is in the dark when we know the power of our own light. It is in the dark that we discover a l l parts of ourselves, with stories they are begging to tell and wisdom that they have come to impart. It is in the dark that we learn the depths of our compassion and the power of our own hearts. It is in the dark that we discover our wholeness.
Our shadows are simply the parts of us that we have cast away, that we have disowned, run away from, or left unacknowledged. They are no less a part of us than our brilliance, our hearts, our light. But when left unattended to they grow feral and seek ways to come out and disrupt our worlds. When unattended to, the shadow become imbalanced, angry, and looks to make itself known, usually in ways that are to our detriment and cause great discomfort. Though, when we willingly enter into relationship with these parts of ourselves we can learn how to skillfully work with them and offer our whole selves a type of love that we could never have known before.
As we enter into winter, move further into Kali Yuga, and answer the call of the new moon to journey inward we are being called to the path of the heart. When we choose the path of courage and go tend to the deeper darker parts of ourselves, we are meeting and gathering up the wisdom of our wholeness. We learn the medicine of all the parts of us. And as we meet our full selves, as we call out to the pieces of us we have cast away, the sides to us we do not know, we expand and cultivate a deeper capacity to love. When we willing meet our shadow and offer it compassion it no longer has the power to cause harm and instead becomes another part of the whole. The concept of oneness that we are taught through plant medicine, yoga, and other spiritual practices becomes embodied wisdom, sunk deep into our bones, and permeating our whole being.
To walk the path of the heart, to answer the call of the sacred feminine, to do the work of being a healer, shaman, medicine woman, leader, teacher, yogi, activist, in this lifetime, to be a voice of the sacred, means finding the willingness and courage to answer this call again and again. To walk this path is to answer The Wild Calling. It means learning how to trust in each season we find ourselves in, to feel the equal value of our shadow and our light and to love everything in between. To hold each part of ourselves tenderly with love and compassion means that we can offer this in a true way to all other living beings. When know not just in our minds, but in our being the sacredness of all of who we are we can pour this out into the world through our actions and being.
So while the demand and push that we look into the eyes of the shadow of ourselves and world around us can feel harsh, maybe even cruel at times, there is a liberation of love on the other side. And the taste of this elixir of freedom, the nectar of sacredness and reverence, the sweet honey of l o v e in the highest forms is worth everything along the way.
Alchemy is the art of transmutation, the act of changing an objects state, to me this is the power of love. That we can learn to change what we fear into what we love, not just in ourselves, but in the whole world. And we desperately need this medicine right now.
So with love and care, journey deep. Bring a candle of compassion and go gather up all the parts of yourself that you have cast away. Meld them back together, stir them into your potions, alchemize them into the greatest gift of love you can give to yourself and others.
If you're called to walk the path, but don't quite know how. If alchemy is ready to occur. If you are here to learn how to walk with one foot in each world, straddling both the light and the dark, here are a few resources along the way.
a meditation to welcome in all parts of your self
Start your day with a potent meditation to call in all parts of yourself. The first time you do this meditation allow it to be a free writing exercise. As you ground down and settle in whatever way is comfortable to you begin to call out to all parts of you. Welcome in the wise woman, the wild woman, the teacher, the mother, the lover, the one with "too many needs", the insecure one, the sacred one, the weak one, the warrior one...allow the list to go on and on until you feel all parts of you are present. Make sure to call in your shadow and fear, as well as, your brilliance and light. Leave a few minutes to pause and see if any other parts of you are desiring to emerge. As you stand in front of all parts of you look at them with awe and amazement. Bow with deep love and compassion to every single part of who you are. And make space for them to speak and offer this wisdom. All this to be an embodied experience, actually feel in your physical body when each part of you steps into the space and feel the gratitude and love for them flowing out of you.
This meditation was taught to me by Dr. Lorin Roche as part of my training in Tantric Meditation and study of The Radiance Sutras. I offer private guided meditations individually and as part of my alchemical coaching work, to learn more or book a session with me please go here.
Womb Clearing work
bringing light to where the shadow lives
The womb space or sacral chakra is home to all parts of ourselves. It is where all life begins and ends. The womb is where we learn the wisdom of cycles and discover the depths of who we are. Doing work to clear the womb area gives us more access to our creativity, fire, passions, purpose, and the flow of the feminine. Womb clearing work can be done by people of all genders, as we all have an energetic womb space in our second chakra. Womb clearing work can be done in a plant spirit healing ceremony, through working with flower and gem essences ( I've created a essence for this work called The Goddess Blend) , by sacred yoni steaming ceremonies, or in guided meditation and journeying work. To begin engaging with womb clearing work set aside time each new moon to journey inward, you can also take this time to do a yoni steam or begin working with a new flower and gem essence. Integrate the invocation meditation and allow your womb to speak its wisdom and to let go and shed during this time. To learn more about womb clearing or to schedule a plant spirit healing ceremony please reach out here or email email@example.com
Flower & Gem Essences
vibrational medicine & allies to help you walk the path
Flower & Gem essences work on the subtle emotions and energetic body.
Flower Essences :: are vibrationally infused solutions made from living, organic, wild crafted flowers. The essences carry what is known as the “energetic signature” or vibration of the flower the can be transmitted to the user. This every can be used to positively influences imbalances within the body or energetic field. Flower essences help us to move through cycles and phases of healing, with the same grace and intelligence as a flower grows and blooms each season.
Gem Essences :: are also vibrationally infused solutions, which are made with varying types of crystals, gem, and stones. They are intended to impart the unique energy of each stone into the user. Gem essences bring the resonance and wisdom of the stone and crystal beings into our bodies and energetic fields.
Suggested use: 2-4 drops under the tongue, as needed. Use for the course of at least 1 moon cycle and set intention and invitation for this healing work.
To purchase flower & gem essences please go here or email firstname.lastname@example.org for a full catalogue or to have a consultation and custom essence made.
With love & care,