The Erotic Unveiling: Evoking the Inherently Sensual Nature of the Feminine
On the last full moon, witnessed by 1200 women I offered to the fire my wish, to learn how pray with my whole body. Finding what is inherently sacred & (w)holy in my being; accessing the Divine, not just through my heart, but in my womb, and in every crevice and valley of my physical form.
I watched and elder women dance, dance into being the Directions, calling them in by feeling each element in her being. I witnessed her breath the sacred fire and rage of the goddess Kali Ma, letting the flames lick her body. I saw her pull from her womb and birth into the world an invocation to Spirit in all of its forms. I watched her merge, become, birth out, and pull from the depths of her being all that is holy, sacred, and precious. I watched her dance in a power that was not hers alone; it was the power of all women, throughout time and place. She danced with the power that comes from an intimate, embodied relationship with the divine. And I was in awe. Wonder. Rapture. Enthralled with her beauty and she carried and made manifest with her being.
And I as I watched her I prayed to the Goddess, to “teach me how to pray with my whole body, to feel you with my whole being”. I prayed with a knowing and a longing for a tie to Her that was this sacred, palpable, and intimate.
And when She answers prayers, she does so in no small way.
While this circle was the first time I spoke out loud this prayer, my soul has been singing it for a lifetime. It makes so much sense to crave and seek out this medicine, as it truly is the only way through this period of deep healing I find myself in.
Since that moon, she has whispered to me, lead me, called to me, shown me, deep truths about the inherently sensual nature of her ways. I have always spoken the language of plants and of the heart. I love to drip these words out like honey and find the places in others that speak this language, inviting them to pour out their nectar into the world. And while this is undoubtedly my work in this lifetime, the feminine is beckoning me to even more. Asking me to drop deeper into the depth of the Womb. The source of all life. The beginning and the end. The place of the greatest alchemy and wisdom.
She has been singing to my heart, asking me to speak truths about the power of the erotic, the sensual, the body, the womb, the cyclical nature of our emotions, and how we cannot hold these pieces of ourselves as separate from our Divinity. These parts and pieces of myself feel like the most vulnerable unveiling. I am still dancing in the waters, not fires this time, of the womb.
And yet while I oscillate in fear and shame about occupying this part of myself I have witnessed time and time again the power of women living in this place. I saw it in the radiant elder woman who danced around the fire, marking sacred space with her body, calling in the Goddess to fill her physical form. I encounter it in the women that find their way in the orgasmic meditation community, who are full and satiated with their own divinity. I’ve watched it in the womb clearing work that I guide and lead women through, their power to go into places that feel broken by pain, only to discover their power in breaking open. And I am seeing the unfolding in my own life as I heal my own pain & trauma, learning how to embrace my womb as the home to Goddess and inviting her to be my guiding force.
The more I step into this place, the more in my body and embodied I allow myself to become the more I am able to surrender to the sweetness of her wisdom and knowing I do not have to figure it all out on my own.
My womb is becoming a constant companion and guiding force. To be honest, I’ve literally begun treating her as an oracle, asking her to show me through my body a resonate yes and no. And I am learning to trust, in the face of fear and doubt, her wisdom and answers. And when I do, my goddess, there is a magic and alchemy that is so much greater than I could have planned or created on my own.
Each time we evoke the divine within we learn how to pray with our whole body. With each exhale we pray of sweet release and surrender with our bodies. With each inhale we pray to be filled with Spirit; to be filled with whatever we need most in that moment. We pray with our bodies each time we cry, bleed, orgasm, dance, rest, and offer ourselves to be channels.
I invite you find what happens when you evoke the Divine in an ordinary moment. When you use your body as entry point to the sacred within. When you actually feel, like deeply, deeply feel, each prayer, especially those of gratitude & surrender. There is a sacredness to be found in to ordinary, the primal, the body that is begging to be unearthed. And the world, especially the waters, desperately need us to pray with all the power we can find.
If you feel called to this work, to learn how to occupy, heal, and work with the feminine. Please reach out. I offer private mentorships, coaching, and a sacred initiation circle, The Wild Calling, so that you can deepen your engagement with this work.
In deep reverence & awe,